four hundred eleven



I was born in 1951, we still had World War 1 veterans living in abandoned trolly cars much older than these. They were from a trolly system that we would today call light rail. They went through the city and to a few neighboring towns. You can still see remnants of the rail bed. 

Cars and busses became more common so they were abandoned in a yard in an industrial area by the main railroad tracks.

WW1 ended in 1918 so these men were 55 to 65 years old. I don't know the detailed history and don't personally know any of the men, this is just my experience as a young boy.

These men were a mystery to most people I think my father knew or at least talked with them. To a kid they looked scary. They were gas victims mostly according to my dad. They used mustard, chlorine and nerve gas in trench warfare, it was so horrible it was outlawed after the war as part of the Geneva Conventions.

I have never understood the purpose of this war and from what I have read most historians are confused too, but they sound real smart. One thing I do know all through history almost all nations treat their war veterans like crap.


I don't know why these men lived in these abandoned trolly cars but the city people respected them. 

These men were really messed up a couple had missing limbs and some had their nervous systems ruined. On the hottest days of summer one soldier would be dressed like it was sub zero weather. 

When we shopped for groceries my mother bought an extra something, a can of beans or salmon, a loaf of bread or coffee.  On the way home we would stop the car and one of us would leave it on the step out front.

A friend of mine's dad was a milk man. They delivered bottled milk house to house back then. On Saturday I would ride with them. I remember his dad stopping to drop off milk and cigarettes, then talk with one of them a few minutes. 

I never thought much about it back then it was no big deal it was just something people did.

Occasionally you may see a man my dad's age talking with one of the soldiers but they were mostly antisocial. 

I never thought much about it but the community supplied everything these men needed. One day as we were driving by I saw my doctor leaving with his black bag. In those days doctors did house calls so I knew what it was. 

As I grew older I discovered cars and girls so I didn't think much about those men. I assume the help and respect continued without fan fair. 

I do remember every parade had the local VFW carrying the flags. They would march in uniform with their prominent beer bellies and one WW1 Veteran  would march in uniform with them. People stood and men took their hats off back then.

It may have been what small towns did back then but I believe it still goes on in large and small towns and like always it is done in secret. 

There are bad people but there are far more good people. They do acts of kindness without recognition just because it is the right thing to do. 

four hundred ten

Every news cycle there are countless references to our rights, independence, sovereignty, freedoms and democracy. Unfortunately these have been weaponized, freedom of speech depends on who is speaking and our rights have morphed into cradle to grave entitlements. 

Politicians claim our human rights to free housing,  free utilities, free health care, free food, free clothing, free transportation and free entertainment but never mention accountability. 

Claiming and expanding freedoms without responsibility or accountability is now the norm. Any mention of these will brand you an uncaring privileged racist and every kind of  _____phobe (fill in the blank).

These attitudes are not new they have always been used to sway voters and gain power. Please don't assume my politics, no party has clean hands. Buying votes and corruption have been around from the beginning and will be as long as they still work.

Freewill has been given to every one of us along with accountability. No matter what some man or woman with a fancy title tells us or what they give us we are always accountable for our actions.

Governments that still have at least a little respect for their citizens must still convince them to give their consent or votes. Yes there is an effort to bypass this but so far we still have elections. 

John Adams said "Our Constitution was made only for a moral and religious people. It is wholly inadequate to the government of any other." 

The idea that our rights come from God is fundamental. Today we have heard our elected officials mock this idea. I have asked students that questions each year I heard more of them say our rights come from government. This I believe is by design.

The more people trust governments for rights, the more they become slaves to those governments. The rush to purge all religion from schools and government is obvious. "Organized religion" has been demonized for simply pointing out our rights come from God. Theocrats, bigots, racists, nationalists, exclusionist and worse are an immediate reaction to any mention of accountability. 

They say they can be moral, more generous and caring without God, but they set their own standards to measure these and are only accountable to themselves. 

Religious people look to God for standards and understand they are accountable to Him.

Marquis De Sade is an extreme example. His philosophy was, if there is no God I am only accountable to myself. I can use my freewill the way I choose without consequence. Hitler, Stallon, Mao and every mass murderer and serial killer used their freewill. 

Yes these are extremes but we must admit respect for human life has been shifting. Attitudes toward the homeless, mentally ill, the elderly and those not yet born have slowly been rationalized. If there is no standards or guard rails this is inevitable.

God gave us all freewill with just one string, accountability. Ironically those who deny him the most blame him for humans using their freewill to do horrible things. Imagine how it hurts Him to watch.

I can't think of anything more selfish then to take this gift so lightly. As a Christian I believe in the God of Abraham Isaac and Jacob and put my faith in the promises of Jesus Christ.

I believe in an all seeing all knowing God. I also believe God is love. I also believe I have a purpose beyond my own self interests. There is my will and God's will and I have the freedom to choose.

What is God's will? There are endless books written and a multitudes of opinions, I believe this:

1 Timothy 2:3

"This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all men to be saved and come to a knowledge of the truth. "

This may be over simplified but it works for me. Anything I do or say can be judged by this standard. Is it helping others become more interested in God or does it repel them? 

This doesn't require us to be preachers on the contrary others see God when we are at our worst sometimes. How we react to unfairness, grief and suffering. In our weakness God can be seen more clearly. Willingness and honesty are a powerful testimony.

I do come from a place of gratitude because God saved me first in 1980 from my sins then in 1990 from the clutches of alcohol. I received His Spirit then drank with Him and finally aligned myself with His will. I am forever grateful He was faithful to his word and did not abandon me.

Governments will do what they do and with enough people they can do great or horrible things. However every individual has a choice to do God's will or reject it and follow their own self interests. 

This flesh and blood life is limited. These suits we wear to stay in this dimension will eventually wear out and we will have to go. I believe there is something beyond this life. I have seen and felt God's mercy, love and faithfulness I know what He says is true. 

The draw to intellectualize everything can become a distraction from a simple truth there is a God and it isn't you or me. Use your freewill wisely.